Arachnider

Well, this is a very long absent...  I haven't really open this DA account of mine since... when? 1-2 years ago? My university tasks were getting more and more fierce and somehow the tired mind and body just couldn't keep up with it. So I went to sleep early, relaxing, and had some fun with friends. And somehow, I ended up playing often and even more often. At that point I had already released my passion in drawing and painting, both traditionally and digitally. Even after graduating, I've already forgot about those times when I just want to draw something better. But one day, just around 1 month ago, ~Arcanedist (https://www.deviantart.com/arcanedist) and :iconloone-wolf:  s

well, recently, I don't really understand my own self. and somehow I lost my confidence in drawing, designing and other things related to those things.. it's started from yesterday when I tried to make the portfolio of my design (a task from my university)..  I got a lot of confusion about my own design...  and somehow, suddenly, I didn't like my own design... it's just not as good as I imagined.... and when it comes to draw some manga pics, I can't really pull my techniques to the best....  it looks like my skills can't go up anymore...  and it's annoying me so much, that I hate my own pics... but if it's not drawing or designing things

Holiday will soon ends.... it's time to face the fierce reality of the university's tasks... and that sucks...   because I will be back to my reality, facing the whole architectural things...  (which I hate more... during this holiday, for some reasons...) when the holiday is coming to an end, it gives me a good things too. Last week, my friend gave me a lot of gundam animes and many other animes... but since the holiday will soon ends, I've no time to watch all of the animes, and that is somehow sad for me... not only that, I found another sadness again... I'm a Gundam collector...  most of them are coming from the SD Gundam series... y